Seriously, what the fuck is love? Is it just a feeling, an emotion, a chemical process? I don’t know. I can’t say with certainty that I’ve ever really been in love. Sure, I’ve felt the butterflies in my stomach but I don’t think that’s it. I like to believe that there’s more to love than that. That a relationship isn’t built on love but rather on trust. In my opinion, love at first sight doesn’t exist. I believe that love comes with time and if it doesn’t, well, then the relationship is probably not really going anywhere.
I also don’t believe that love is a good thing. Don’t get me wrong, I know that liking someone feels great. However, that’s only the case if the other person likes you back. And that’s why I think love is evil. It’s a really fragile thing and only works if two people feel it for one another. And even then it can fall apart so easily.
Maybe it can be compared to a disease. Let’s take one where you suffer from a fever. The whole good part would then be a fever dream in which you don’t realize that you’re sick. But then the breakup comes, or, in other words, the fever sinks. You’re rendered a worn out, miserable piece of shit, drowning in sadness and self-pity. Only then you realize that you’re sick. So you start to look for remedies. Alcohol, for example. Only the remedies don’t really cure your disease. They help you push the sickness to the back of your mind. But in the morning you wake up and just feel worse than before. The pain comes back. You’re still tired, still sick. The only real cure is time.
Or maybe a different approach: Love is an addiction. Once you’re in love, you can’t live without it. And if it gets taken away from you, you show signs of deprivation. Again, time is the cure. You have to starve your feelings. For a long time, your life depended on a drug that you now have zero access to. So what the fuck else are you going to do than sit it out and suffer?
I don’t mean to say that we shoud just try to never fall in love. I’m saying that this picture of romantic relationships is made out of very, very fragile glass.
You probably may not agree with me, especially since I said that I’ve never really been in love. But I’ve had relationships. And I know what a breakup feels like.
Anyway, feel free to tell me your opinion on this topic.